Bloom True – week 5: blooming true
At the end of this week I stand a little aside from the painting process and was focused mostly on my thoughts about finding my authentic voice and finding my own flow in life.
I feel the same as a classmate described when she stopped her paintings “all at the same point after the translucent layers.” as she writes, “I havent gone any further, I feel out of control.” So I managed to do the next step to incorporating a personal imagery. But it was not painted from my heart. I’m scared. And I don’t know where the painting will go. And I’m in doubt if I really will see where the painting will go and reveal itself. Flora answered to the classmate as follows and I take it for my own process:
“As I have mentioned throughout the course, the first three weeks of the course are really just about gathering the bits and pieces of the process and reflecting on what “stories” might be holding us back. Many students here have never painted before, so I think it’s important to really take the time learning the basics…like mark making and letting go. … However, we are at the point in the process where I really encourage you to make it your own in whatever ways feel right for YOU.”
I will take this quote with me as a reminder for me to show up.
“I hope you will go out and let stories, that is life, happen to you,and that you will work with these stories from your life – your life –not someone else’s life – water them with your blood and tears and yourlaughter till they bloom, till you yourself burst into bloom.That is the work. The only work.”– Clarrisa Pinkola Estes from “Women who Run with the Wolves“
I will take on the challenge. And will continue to paint on my canvases (and beyond).
That is where I got so far
And this is about the process of the paintings:
Und hier zeige ich den Fortschritt der einzelnen Arbeiten: